So I’ve been sucked into my own spiritual journey this past month. I feel a bit ashamed to say it but it’s all because of Tik Tok. I know I’m the worst but hear me out. On my for you page it was full of people talking about manifesting, spirit guides, angel numbers and meditation. I mean there was a reason I was being shown these videos in the first place, there’s an algorithm. I was already open to it, I’m quite an open person.
After seeing this for a few days I was interested and wondered if there was something more for me. I had also been seeing the numbers 1111 everywhere for months, I still see those numbers everywhere. I now make it a habit of shouting “IT’S 11:11” or “Hi Grandma!!” whenever I see the numbers. These numbers are normally associated with a spiritual awakening from the universe or my spirit guides were trying to reach out to me. I don’t come from a religious background and I’ve never believed in something higher than us human beings (except for aliens but that is another subject completely…or is it?) I think maybe I was too matter of fact about my position on earth.
I do believe that the universe is an almighty powerful thing that is listening to us. I hope I don’t sound too weird here. Ever since I’ve been researching about all these subjects around this certain type of spirituality I’ve felt less alone and I think that’s the most important thing to take from this. I now sometimes see someone in the corner of my eye and feel like a presence is with me randomly. But I’m never scared of that presence like you’d expect to be. I feel positive that I’m being looked after by someone else. Even if you’re reading this and thinking wow this girl is mental doesn’t that sentiment sound lovely?
Another weird thing just to add is that I’m coming across ladybirds everywhere…like everywhere. And then I remembered when I was younger I’d used to see them all the time like they were attracted to me or something. I don’t know if that means something but I like to associate it with my Grandma just giving me a little positive nudge here and there.
Because of this new found spirituality I think I’ve come to understand others who believe in a higher power such as God or whoever a person choses to pray to. I now understand the comfort of someone looking out for you, listening to your prayers and guiding you. I’ll admit I never understood it before but I never gave spirituality the time of day.
I’ve been manifesting a lot, when I first started I manifested to get accepted into my masters course that I begin next month. You might say that I achieved that off of my own back. However, I knew positions in the course would be low due to how late I applied and I felt so strongly about the course that I desperately wanted to make sure I got into this course. I felt like I was listened to.
Manifestation is basically tricking the subconscious into believing you already have the thing you want and thus then the universe will bring that thing to you. The law of attraction! It’s powerful. Being positive will bring positive things back to you, I fully believe in that statement.
Now don’t get me wrong this is coming from a very pessimistic person. I thrived off being negative, I was always negative. I mean I would be quite positive to others but I wouldn’t ever believe the positive statements I was spewing I was just trying to reassure myself and others whilst secretly freaking out inside. I’m still quite a negative person but this work I’ve been doing is helping me shift my perspective.
You can begin with something small with manifestation such as seeing a four leaf clover or certain type of butterfly in the next 24 hours. If you believe it’ll happen it will happen. There is many different manifestation techniques but I mainly follow mediation manifestation techniques on YouTube. It’s super relaxing and it’s a lovely way to start my days.
A lot of people use manifestation for money, trust me so have I. The problem with this is that you have to fully believe that you already have that thing and when you’re like me and constantly worry about money and how little of it you have, that’s not easy. Because money has been my aim for my manifestation recently and I don’t believe it will work I’ve fallen off the manifestation train.
A lot of it is overwhelming as well, there is a lot of videos claiming that you should be doing things like shadow work whilst manifesting otherwise it won’t work and others claiming certain manifestation methods are better than others. It’s an information overload!!!!
I got overwhelmed by the videos popping up on my Tik Tok that I stopped engaging with them and eventually my algorithm changed meaning I saw less of those videos. There’s so many more aspects to spirituality that I haven’t even began to explore yet and I may never do so. The thing is your spiritual journey is your own and however involved you are with it is up to you. You can do tarot readings if you want or not! You can do charka healing if you want or not! It’s up to you. Doesn’t mean the universe won’t listen to you any less.